I'm getting burnt out from my trainings. I've been running 5times a week, tue/wed/thur/sat or sun. Weekdays it's 5km /8 or 10 km/ 5km and weekend is one long run plus easy cross training. My muscles is REALLY tight like pulling 10 rubber bands together. Maybe it's becos i didn't stretch enough.

I really miss nus and training with MIR people. Those crazy workouts with scott, running up the sci slope with stares from ppl from the busstop. Back then, i was feeling my progession and increase in fitness. But now, i feel like shit, can't even do a enjoyable 5km run without feeling the tightness in my muscles. kaoz. i even had to spend $$ on sports massage. I'm the type of runner who need ALOT of team motivation and mayb alittle not independent. hahaha. alright. i'm lazy lah. The point is i realise team trainings has great power on students, unless the student athlete is so self motivated and very competitive by nature. HEnry said that no runners actually likes training or running itself, it's mostly because they are good at it or they get the shiok feeling from it, be it attention/winning or watever. Who likes to be tortured during those intervals and long runs?? Come to think about it, if not for the fact that i was relatively good at running, i won't have started it. Imagine a 17yr old girls who hates running to begin with, how is that even possible if not for odac (peer influence) and being able to represent school (the sense of achievement&attention). Here's me now, after 5years, wanting to try running 42km. lol!

Anyways, my life have been quite a mess, no focus, knowing what i have to do but not doing it. No cherishing what the joy of been a student. Piles of work and assignment awaiting me. ARGH. I hate this me!!!!