happy over the weekends:)

Girls mood changes like the weather. I wont deny that. I think we were totally fine and happy over the weekend, going to timbre with ivan and the usual gang, climb and eat nepali food ETC ETC:)

well, i have to say that though i may not be too contented sometimes. When i feel and see that he has a heart for me, i would be touched and then i would forget all my unhappy about the relationship. pretty easily. 

i still can't say i love him yet but i'm liking him more and maybe falling in love? :) 

there's no reason to be unhappy

yes there is no reason. it's just because of expectations and compromise? or it's between just me and him or it is just me. i feel like running away.

something to shout out

I can only say it here because there's no audience. Why has it become like this? We were official for only close to two month (not even two yet). I won't say there is a problem but i am just not very happy.

He has been an excellent boyfriend. well, in terms of being there for me, letting things be at my convenience at his expense, loving me, picking up what i enjoy to do, accommodating, sensitive, being sweet...etc

but i'm not happy, i dunno if i'm having a pms or what now. I just don't feel like being with him anymore. And the thought of it kinda make me cry, i just dunno what other ways to resolve that difference with him, to accommodate him, to take him as my boyfriend and to start loving him. Or maybe i'm just lazy to. Whenever i think of how i'm kinda frustrated with him over some issues, i feel like giving up on things with him. Everyday there would be something i can't agree with him about, or i will get annoyed over something or i will just be thinking i'm not learning anything new or doing something exciting in my life etc. I don't feel like working out the difference and living with expectations for him or from him. it's kinda tiring and i think i would be happier without all those.

Sometimes, it start to feel like a routine and alittle mundane for me. I need new excitement in life to feel that i'm living my life. i want to learn new thing, meet new people, have variety in life. I'm just greedy. I want too many things in life.

before the worst

It's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day that you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain

So explain to me, How it came to this
Let's take it back to the night that we kissed
It was Dublin city on a Friday night
With vodkas and coke, I was (...)

We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought but never heard
Who would have thought it would end up like this? 

But everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on
Was trying to take it back before it all went wrong

Before the worst
Before we met
Before our hearts decided it's time to love again
Before today
Before too long
Let's try and take it back before it all went wrong

There was a time that we'd stay up all night
Best friends, yeah, talking til the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to lose but so much to gain

Are you hearing me? Cz I don't wanna miss
That you would drift on memory bliss
It was Grafter street, on a rainy night
I was down on one knee and you were mine for life

We were thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Who would have thought it would end up like this? 

But everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on
Was trying to take it back before it all went wrong

Before the worst
Before we met
Before our hearts decided it's time to love again
Before today
Before too long
Let's try and take it back before it all went wrong