oh! i completed a 42km:)

I'm so happy about finishing this 42km SC marathon! This wasnt a intentional to begin with but i'm so glad that i've finally done it once, in my life! And i'm so blessed not to have any injury after the run, not even knee pain. don't get me wrong, it's still a painful 5h30min run and a painful counting down and mental prep process.

Life is just ironic. When i trained hard for it, did all the preparations, paid for it, started with the intention to reach the goal, it was so difficult, i even end up with injury all over. well, some things are just meant to be such, it's just unexpected and expecting too much won't help anything!

AND NEVER RUN A MARATHON ALONE! never walk alone! hahaha! it's best to have people around the same standard to run together with.

Thanks to christine and joy tan (whoever that is). if not for her asking me to train with her, i won't even decide to take it up without proper training. 

i should learn not to bother or be bothered.

maybe i can't help me but feel bothered by little things. little pacts or rather statements that actually don't mind much to begin with when i don't even consciously remember them... and when they only pop up once in a while and i realise 'ey, i thought we were supposed to do this this this...' okay, probably i tend to remember pacts and promises at the back of my mind. so it's best not to take things so seriously to begin with.

yeah, today song just said he's just broken with the gf. oh wells, such things happen and i just hope they are taking a break and not a break-up. and it doesnt feel very good to be asked to shut-up when i was trying to show concern and when his own loud month blurted it all out in front of everybody. well, it's song. and Do i look like i have a good-to-bully or the let-off-corner face?

one other thing i can't stand and cannot not be bothered by. having no patience with me. especially when i'm already trying hard and it's an expectable situation. and the belly-flasher mr nikos is totally right, giving positive feedback, showing empathy, acknowledgement make hell lot of difference to the student.