I'm getting burnt out from my trainings. I've been running 5times a week, tue/wed/thur/sat or sun. Weekdays it's 5km /8 or 10 km/ 5km and weekend is one long run plus easy cross training. My muscles is REALLY tight like pulling 10 rubber bands together. Maybe it's becos i didn't stretch enough.

I really miss nus and training with MIR people. Those crazy workouts with scott, running up the sci slope with stares from ppl from the busstop. Back then, i was feeling my progession and increase in fitness. But now, i feel like shit, can't even do a enjoyable 5km run without feeling the tightness in my muscles. kaoz. i even had to spend $$ on sports massage. I'm the type of runner who need ALOT of team motivation and mayb alittle not independent. hahaha. alright. i'm lazy lah. The point is i realise team trainings has great power on students, unless the student athlete is so self motivated and very competitive by nature. HEnry said that no runners actually likes training or running itself, it's mostly because they are good at it or they get the shiok feeling from it, be it attention/winning or watever. Who likes to be tortured during those intervals and long runs?? Come to think about it, if not for the fact that i was relatively good at running, i won't have started it. Imagine a 17yr old girls who hates running to begin with, how is that even possible if not for odac (peer influence) and being able to represent school (the sense of achievement&attention). Here's me now, after 5years, wanting to try running 42km. lol!

Anyways, my life have been quite a mess, no focus, knowing what i have to do but not doing it. No cherishing what the joy of been a student. Piles of work and assignment awaiting me. ARGH. I hate this me!!!!

after a loooong weekend

the weekend was packed to with lots of meeting up with friends, merry-making and drinking. Of cos it can't be short of running:) i feel that my nie is jus all fun and laughter, when i'm supposed to be learning how to be a good teacher... hmm..

Friday- class 3A won 2nd for rugby!!!:D omg, none of us expect to get through even into semis. And we got into the finals! We were short of player from the start man. How lucky. It was surprisingly less tired with no subs, more enjoyable and lots of fun! all becos of adam:) Then we had the first class gathering at gillman village @ handles' bar. Cool shit man. my class is so ons. i love them to bits:)

sat- had breakfast lunch with seng. dunno y we got alittle close-> any close guy friend to be:) oooh met my dearest odac friends, still so fun to be ard and so carefree!:)

sun- ran with june but not with ht. i guess i was alittle bad with cos of the white lie i told him. it's for his own good man. i shouldn't be misleading him anymore, which is even more evil lah. he is a super good catch though, jus that he's too good for my own good.

mon- went climbing again!!:D so happyyy to see yen kai again. my hands cramped like shit after only 2 climbs. i'm so freaking lousy lah. cannot tahan man. mon was supposed to be my studying day when i'm out playing again:P

basically the whole weekend i did NO work at all. so slack. get paid and no work done. SO u better jus do part and start learning more games:) eh teacher, u're paid to study, at learn something!!

back to blogging:)

okay, i'm back from nepal island expedition and finish my ese and started NIE and started climbing and having fun at my PE course! so i decided it's time to be back and blogging my days again!:) As NIE ALWAYS emphasize, REFLECTION is THE THING to do for all trainees. so much so that we've to do reflections as assessment. I dont sound too happy huh, but i basically think it's good to keep a diary to read next time:)

Anyway, lots of i wanted to do but still not done, dated back from the time i just came back from nepal... so hereby, i'm promising this to myself that i'm gg to do it before... next next mth.. hmm maybe end of the year lah. haiz, teacher alr still such a procrastinator...

At least i did keep a journal on my ESE so i'll update later on:) tog with my trip journals (which is top secret!!!) hmmmmmm.... okay, next, i'll mostly be talking about NIE then:D

I didnt quite adapt to PE as well as i thought i would. i feel alittle bit of dis illusion, at the same time, it also gave me a good perspective about being a PE teacher. A little too physical for my own good. I thought having it all physical would be a great lifestyle but i appearently it's not really what i want... Imagine the first lesson to intro to PE and u're thrown a question of 'what is PE? is it about fun? play? games?' and you start to ask 'what exactly is PE to you?'. No doubt it is important, but i'm thrown off tangent, starting a career as a teacher and not knowing what i want is quite embarrassing.

And i'm a LOUSY game player as compared to my classmate lah!!! so sad!!! and stress and demoralising leh!!! this is one thing about runners, only can run and jus sux at games (cf to other zai classmates)

Still i'm having fun playing ard unless this week when we all started mugging our asses off for elearning and upcoming assignment! STRESSSS! we're freaking PE students for goodness sake! I do realised that i'm not good at my practical so i better be better at theories:P. I did learn quite alot about motivating students though (to update later tog with outing and volleyball game and GMD)

oh man, i think i got myself into some shit, hearing some stuff i would rather not have heard, and mayb i should distant myself from that person/s. i'm getting vex! i'm so fickle minded and i should freaking stop giving the wrong message to the wrong person/s lah, it's sooooo evil of me! then again, i'm feeling sense of attraction to some people that i shouldnt be thinking about at all. yes at all. bad. just focus on my studies for now okays.