we are selfish

like what von said, humans are born to to be selfish. Like how i am in a relationship. Like how i wanna protect myself to a large extent. Like how i can't let seng go. Like how i want to be happy to be at the receiving end.

Well, seng has made a promise to me- to make me happy. It still take two hands to clap. i will try to clap too. I should just go and do what i like and be happy so seng can be happy too. Time for myself and to take up new things, to look for new things to do. I want an exciting life and i have to look for excitement myself right? And seng can be part of it too. I should not be expecting him to be living my way of life too.

i am glad that things are back to normal once again. it was painful for me to let go. and i dont wanna cry wolf again, unnecessarily. it will become a habit when things go wrong.

okayy i should focus on my work! got lots to do!

hey baby

i love it when u call me baby :D I guess it's how i like to be pampered like a baby. Like how i grow up in my family. And that's why i do behave like baby sometimes. Being self-centred and needing lots of love from you. Being loved is a great feeling, i wonder how is it like to the one giving? When is the point of giving to much and getting tired of it? Well, i think the satuation point might be reaching soon for you...

I can get upset quite easily yet I'm glad that i will forget being angry with you quickly.

teaching biology

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teachers as change agents
good science in lousy school-> ask  LKY

questioning
- group discussion: not a given in class, need to assign roles in the group- time keeping, note keeping, etc
- clarity
- long answer, explanation in their own words,

- phase time
- ask other student what they think about the questions? ask the students to add on?
- concept cartoon: with misconceptions, non threatening (students themselves being removed from the context, egos are maintained)

- write down their answer (value)
- specific feedback

-too many question: write down the questions first
-questioning of students: encouragement: plant questions for quiet students? ask them to ask one question
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At my brother's wedding. It was a simple, elegant and beautiful wedding. A happy night for my parents. A day of hard work for seng.

The meaning of marriage.

Ever wonder the meaning of rings? Who started wearing the ring? Why do we wear it on the left hand? Is such ceremony really necessary and important? Well, my bro spent about 10K on it. Maybe less after the ang baos. I guess it's a kind of respect for my sis-in-law and her family. No matter how they would think it's just an affair between the both of them, it involves a bigger family. It's also part of a tradition, with the tea ceremony.

I feel the most important take-home of the wedding is not the beautiful ambience, not the beautiful picture nor others' well-wishes, but the meaning of marriage. Well, like what Abbot said, the ring on our left hand will always remind us the meaning and the responsibility of marriage.

At the end of the day, i'm happy to have a new member in the family:D (officially). And thanks to my photographer bf, who put in so much effort and sweat for this wedding too:) 

 

P.S. my make up is done by my BFF, TJ:D

Song: In the sun

I pictured you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in 

May God's love be with you
Always....
May God's love be with you 

I know i would apologize if i could see your eyes
'Cause when you showed me myself, you know, i became someone else
But i was caught in between all you wish for and all you need
I pictured you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You can't keep awake 

May God's love be with you
Always...
May God's love be with you
Always...
May God's love be with you
Always...
May God's love be with you 

'Cause if i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
If i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
If i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
You...
You...
I'll find you
You...

I don't know anymore
What it's for
I'm not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
'Cause i been caught in between all I wish for and all I need
Maybe you're not even sure what it's for
Any more than me 

May God's love be with you
Always...
May God's love be with you
Always...
May God's love be with you
Always...
May God's love be with you

'Cause if i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
If i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
If i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
If i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
You...
You...
I'll find you
You...
I'll find you
You...
I'll find you
You...

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/j/joseph+arthur/#share

Black and white. 3 months ago. We were happier.
I dunno why and i tried (maybe not much effort). But it didnt seem to be working out very well. i should try harder?
When we talk, we are like arguing and snapping at each other. Or u werent listening. or maybe u just appear not to be? Whenever, i say something, i need to repeat 2-3times before it register in you. i didnt remember it being to difficult!
And i have a shorter fuse now for some reason? sometimes i just can't stand the way you talk, why that impatient tone with me?
It's getting tiring only after a few months and i thought everything should be sweet and nice now?

what will happen next time?

I shouldn't have become reliant on Seng. When i can do stuff myself I shouldn't have asked him to do it, just do it on my own! What is so difficult? Printing only mah. Driving only mah. Now that I'm so freaking late when my group is supposed to have a presentation! Sucks man. At 710, I could just print it in 15mins, get out o the house at 730 and still be early! Now I'm half hour late. WTF.

happiness comes and goes

well, it all started with the 5-10min issue. He talked about how he doesn't like my attitude and belief in life. about leading my life with carefree attitude and free-spirited. Well, we all have different expectations at different stage of our lives or of our relationship. He is always a step ahead of me in that sense. And i just wanna be happy actually